What do I do when I’ve ran out of every option? As if everyone around me hates me. College is fun, parties, boys, sex, and drinking.. I mean what can get better. I don’t have a boyfriend but I still feel bad for everything I do or say. This one guy is infatuated with me, but I just want someone to hang all over and why can’t he understand that. I don’t just want to have sex with a guy. You can text me and lay in bed and sleep with me.. but at the end of the day all you can think about is fucking. I mean come on, I’m not going to have sex with you anyways. I just need a friend. And as for the friends I did have I feel like I’ve lost. Maybe because I’ve changed or because they don’t like what I do. Who cares if I had sex with a guy on the baseball team. It was one time and so what if I got caught by their coach, that was one time and I got applauded in the cafe for that too. So is that not enough embarrassment? What else can I fucking do? I just want the world to go to hell.